Current mood:	calm
Current music:	成田

"Home"
So, my flight back to LA has been delayed two hours and because of this terrible misfortune, I am forced to wait in Narita airport, drinking and surfing the internet while everyone else gets a head start back home. Bleak though my outlook may be, I sense that Steven "Mancock" Hausdorfer will find a way to prevail.

It's incredibly difficult to articulate what I am feeling right now. Aside from a two month break between semesters, I have spent the last seven months or so in Japan. During my stay here, I've met so many wonderful people, seen things that have absolutely wowed me, and just done so much. I can't help but feel attached to everything here. I am leaving a tremendously important part of my life behind me and although I will be able to get back glimpses of it, I can never rekindle the experience in it's entirety, and that is deeply saddening.

But it doesn't end or change anything. Those friends are still there. They are people I can still meet, both in Japan and in the US. I have friends all over the world who have shared an incredible experience with me, we have all become richer for it and I think that's the greatest thing in the world right now.

I'm really sorry for the sappy post, but it's as close as I can get to saying how I feel right now. I'm not looking at this as separation from anybody, because they're all there and that makes me able to move forward without worry. I received some heartfelt letters from very close friends earlier, and I bawled like a baby. But that's because I am so grateful to have those kind of people around.

Now it's time to get back home and get readjusted. I will eat tacos. I will eat many of them.